Last night.. when I had that nightmare.
I had another dream.
before you read more further.. Let me remind you that this is a dream.
He asked me out on a date. But he brings his friend along with him. A girl. Beautiful I can say.....compared to me of course.
"Its okay.. It's just his friend." I told myself.
So we went out on a date... with her as a third wheeler. But it feels like I'm the third wheeler that time. I feel like pile of shit. Because..
He cares about her all the time. Asking her if she's hungry.. If she ever needs anything.. asking her if she's okay when she stumbled on her legs.
The next day, I went out with him.. Again. Then he caught that girl being bothered by a stranger. Not really bothered I can say... because she was enjoying it. I can see that.
"Nama apa? member dia ke cane?" He said.
The stranger just answered his question..
"Nama amin. Haah member dia"
"Dia kacau you ke?" He asked the bitch. I just stood there like a fuckin tunggul watching the scene.
"I tak kenal dia." Said the bitch. Yea right.
pfft.
He asked that guy named Amin to come with us.. Then he drove the car to a deserted place. It was pitch ass black tho.
"Betul kau member dia? Kau tak kacau dia?" He asked again while searching for a number on his phone. I stood there, watch his eyes burning as he waited for someone to pick up his call.
That jealousy eye contact.
"Betul bang. Kenapa bawak saya pegi sini bang? Jangan bang kita settle lah baik-baik" Amin said.
He chuckled. Then someone pick up his phone call.
"Ha tempat biasa. Bawak ramai sikit. Ada problem nak settle" He said coldly as he stares at the guy.
"Kau kacau Adlina Halina(i can't remember sorry) kan? Ha kau tunggu nak dapat apa" He said as he hold her hand..
I couldn't stand to look at the situation anymore. I felt invisible. Who the fuck is she and who the hell am I? He never cared about me that way and he fucking show it to me that he cares about her? Fucking fuck you.
I walked straight to him. Eyes pooled with tears chuckling to his face. Laughed cynically. I feel like spitting to his face.
"Adlina Halina, huh?" I fuckin snickered. I looked into his eyes for the last time with full of hatred.
And there he was.. His expression changed from deeply mad at that guy to humoured to my jealousness. He laughed a little. Trying to hide that smile on his face.
He deserved a high five.
On his face.
With a chair.
I really want to do that to him.
What is this to him? A joke? What am I to him?
I really couldn't stand to look at him anymore. Especially in that situation..
Where he fucking hold her hand, trying to protect her. While he left me hanging like a fucking prostitute.
I walked away from them not even caring what they're up to anymore. Fuck everything. I'm in a situation where I need to get drunk that time. I walked as fast as I can never looking back.
"Hey, tu pun jealous ke?" He came to me holding my wrist. I pulled in disgust.
"Sayang.. dia tu bukan siapa-siapa pun lah" He said laughing a little.
"Go ahead and say that to her. Dia tu bukan siapa-siapa pun lah. Dia tu actually I kan?" I said. lmao.
"I don't trust you. Kalau dia bukan siapa-siapa kat you, kenapa you over protective sangat kat dia? Dah lah.. Leave me alone." I continued. I walked away and he didn't say a word anymore. He let me go.
Wow so emotional sial haha mimpi je pun, Teha chill.
But it feels so fucking real. I mean.. If you ever treated that way.. Aren't you fucking mad?
Like a PMS period mood strikes again. Yknow cukup bulan you feel like kissing someone...with your feet.
And when I told you about my dream, Your response was.. annoying.
"Sayang last night I mimpi you curang"
"Haha" then tukar topic.
Did you? I mean... right now I can't do anything but to think of that lol...... Okay lah I think too much.
Mimpi......hanyalah mainan tidur.
I wish.
